Today's tears brought to you by.....Gymboree

I never know what is going to set me off these days. Sometimes it's just looking at Sam and realizing that he's never going to have the kind of memories of his family being intact the way older kids will. Sometimes it takes nothing at all, the tears just come. Despite being accused (by my husband) of not being heartbroken over the fact that he wants a divorce, I am. It's as simple as that. There are no words that describe it.

Today, it was Gymboree. I have Gymbucks to use, and so I went to see what I could find for Mr. Sam. I found this.

For the last nearly 14 years, a lot of times when I've found something with airplanes, I've purchased it. Especially since the boys have been born, because finding cute boy clothes with airplanes or helicopters on them is hard. This line of clothes from Gymboree is adorable AND it's on sale AND I have Gymbucks! How awesome is THAT?! I was excited to dress Sam in it, take a picture and email it to Al.

And then I remembered.

And then I cried. Right there in the middle of Gymboree.

And I still didn't get to use my Gymbucks.